well, this got weird…

What the actual fuck is happening in this world. I honestly don’t even know where to begin. There’s been too much, way too much for me to get through. So I’m not going to. We know where we’ve been and where we are. Will we make it? I fucking hope so.

When the Covid shit hit the fan, we stopped going to school and everything was done online. My workload went up by 150%. I was able to teach for 4 hours straight every single day, no interruptions (besides my weirdo dogs), which is the complete opposite of what teaching in person feels like. It felt exhilarating and exhausting, but it worked for me. I do miss people, but I’m happy.

I also started grad school. Again. I’m going to be dual certified to teach elementary ed and special ed. I’m taking my special ed classes for the next year. I’ll do my elementary ed classes after. It’s literally taking me about 5 hours daily to get all my work done. I’m also teaching summer school. Needless to say, I’m not having much of a summer.

So I’m barely reading for pleasure right now. My Read Harder challenge probably won’t get finished. I’ll hit my goal of 50 books this year, so I guess there’s some consolation in that. But with everything going on in the world, I’m having trouble concentrating on anything. Even before school started, I felt that reading (let alone reading for pleasure) was really frivolous. The reading I’m doing for school is giving me purpose, though. I know I’m reading things that are going to help people, that I’m going to be using what I’m reading to make kids’ lives better. But it’s still hard.

So I’m at 45 books so far this year. End goal in sight. Let’s hope the world gets better. I’m so ready for it.